“But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty; And base things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and things which are not, to bring to nought things that are: That no flesh should glory in his presence.” 1 Cor. 1:27-29
“For we preach not ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord; and ourselves your servants for Jesus’ sake. For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.” 2 Corinthians 4:5-7
After decades of clutching, clinging, and cleaving to this world and the people and stuff in it, not believing in Jesus Christ let alone God the Father, then believing in God, but not Christ, then ultimately believing in Christ but not understanding what it means to deny oneself, take up one’s cross, and follow Him, first not being in God’s Word, then being in God’s Word but not living by it, then becoming His devoted follower but not understanding the filling of and leading by God’s Spirit, now at long last being utterly devoted to Christ as Lord, filled with His Spirit and daily learning to be led by His Spirit through His Word, here I am, utterly Christ’s, servant of Christ, slave of Christ, sold out follower, passionately, vehemently, relentlessly in pursuit of more of the Lord, to be closer to Him, to know Him more, to be more pleasing to Him, to be more conformed to Him, to tell the world about Him, to help the world to find and follow Him forever, continually seeking and hearing from the Lord, as God’s daughter, called as an evangelist and writer, to die to self and live for Christ, to love and worship Him forever.
How humbled, privileged, blessed, and blown away I am by what He has called me to do next in this life He has given me, this life that is now His, as a living sacrifice as He has commanded me for this life to be.
The Lord has called me to forsake all, to leave behind the comfort of the familiar, my house, the area in which I have lived for years, the security of my daily routine, two of my beloved dogs, to be willing to lose all for Christ, and oh how much and how many I have already lost as I die to self and live for Him, with this as the next step He has given me:
To sell my house, without the security of being able to return to it, to give away or throw away most everything but the very bare essentials, to go with 2 paralyzed dogs, 1 dog without eyes, 1 dog hit by 2 cars on the same day, and 2 elderly dogs onto the road in a Honda Element with over 230,000 miles, a personal income considered poverty level in America, a bare-bones ministry budget, with my laptop and printing equipment to write, publish, and print my books, tracts, and devotionals, and to head out onto the mission field of America. Starting in Virginia and having no idea where He will take me from there. Leading me to get whether by donation, discounted, or at regular price a motor home probably class B size and go into the world to preach the Gospel of the Lord Jesus Christ and to help people to become and remain forever followers of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Please understand I am the last person in the world I would ever have imagined God would call to do this. I am 100% Jewish, grew up in a family that didn’t believe in God, was so broken for decades it was questionable whether I would even survive let alone have any semblance of a functioning life, and have spent most of my life clinging to this world. I was shy beyond description as a child, have always depended on people more than description, have not been the adventurous type in decades, have barely traveled in years let alone had the desire to do so, and love things simple, clear, easy, comfortable, secure, and familiar. Having been abandoned by my beloved family and 2 husbands, and despite how much I always clung to people especially loved ones let alone anyone at all because I never felt I was enough on my own, I am being sent out by God knowing this. Jesus Christ is my sufficiency. He is sufficient. He is the one I need.
Why did God pick me? I believe because I am His earthen vessel, totally in love with Him, totally available to Him, totally devoted to Him, and am such a broken mess without Him that it is utterly clear that EVERY SINGLE OUNCE OF GLORY for everything good in and through me will be 100% His. By His Spirit through His Word for His glory.
I am waiting on the Lord for the exact time of my departure, but believe it will be in April. I will not be able to purchase the motor home until my house sells, unless the Lord provides the donation of or financing for one beforehand. It’s in His hands just like I am and all things are!
For those led to help, this is what I could use:
*A CLASS B NON-PROPANE MOTOR HOME
*WAL-MART GIFT CARDS FOR FOOD & SUPPLIES
*GAS CARDS TO BE USED AT ANY TYPE GAS STATION
*FOSTER AND ADOPTIVE HOMES FOR ESTHER & MR. SHNOOKLES
IDEAL WAY TO RECEIVE A DONATION WILL BE BY PAYPAL ON MY WEBSITE WHEN POSSIBLE BECAUSE I WILL BE TRYING WHICH WILL MAKE RECEIVING MAIL AND MAKING BANK DEPOSITS MORE CHALLENGING!