“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6
“You don’t have need to see why,” a beloved friend told me one night. “You just have to be faithful.”
How true are these words. Some of us tend to toss around the word Lord, don’t we? We call Jesus Lord, but do we think and act as though He truly is?
For the umpteenth time, I was deliberating about, and moaning about, and feeling weighed down by, something God had called me to do which I desperately, desperately didn’t want to do. Just when I thought He had finally answered my cries for relief, for change, and for deliverance from a certain responsibility, when I thought He had answered my cries the way I wanted and thought best, mind you, I was shocked to discover He had altogether different plans. He was placing right back on my shoulders the exact responsibility I so unbelievably much wanted to be freed from. But why, God, why? I sought to understand. Not only was I angry at God, which is wrong, and due to not trusting Him, also sin, but I figured He owed it to me to give me understanding of His decision, of His will, if I were going to choose to obey Him. Oh, the audacity of me! The pride! The lack of reverence! Sin, yes. To be repented of!
Does obedience to God require understanding? Does God owe it to use to give us all the facts, to explain Himself to us, to tell us how everything will unfold, to disclose to us why He desires what He desires, to give us a five-year plan, etc.? No! He is God. Christ is Lord!
Sometimes God does give us understanding. Sometimes He does by His Spirit show us things in advance. Sometimes He does show us the bigger picture, or at least a piece of it. But other times He merely expects us to submit to Him, to trust Him, to let Him lead us, to choose to follow Him in love, faith, and obedience.
To this day, I don’t understand why God gave me back a great burden particularly at a time I already felt utterly overloaded. Nor do I have any idea what He intends for me to do with what He gave me back. But I do know this. My friend was right. I don’t need to know why. I need simply to be faithful. As a Christ follower, I am God’s daughter and God’s servant. As such, it is my responsibility above all else to love and serve Him with all my heart. This, with His strength, for His glory, even without understanding, I intend to do. Closer I know I will draw to Him, and Him to me, when I choose the pathway of honor and obedience. Amen!